Wednesday, 27 April 2011

It's impressive how confusing things can be in my head.

It's impressive how confusing things can be in my head. I just spent three days in Meteora with my family for the easter holidays. It was pretty awesome,the place and all i mean. It was cool,really. But my sister has made my life a living hell. She's like trying to convince me she has absolutely no love for me in her. It must be some kind of jealousy about "sharing" our mum,but even if she's five years old she is able to understand that what she does is just not right. And again. People confuse me. People say the dont care   a t   a l l   and still ask your opinion. Well why ask me if you dont care? Go ask someone else whose opinion matters. Or just admit you care even *that* little. People really confuse me. My friends fall in love with each other,and its either bad timing and heartbreaks or total love. Oh,and i forgot to mention that I'm the one that learns about all this at the end. Just when i see it with my own eyes and they can't hide it anymore. Meanwhile,people do trust me with all kinds of secrets. Secrets about everything,secrets that most people know or -even better- secrets that im the first person   e v e r   to tell. Even if its not something really bad or weird or anything,i still get all the burden. I mean,of course,they didn't kill anybody,but still they had the burden and they talked to me about it so i got all the burden. And im supposed to act as if nothing happened,as if none of it matters to me. I just dont get it. Do you?

Saturday, 9 April 2011

day 314

I don't have much to say really. I missed one 3day trip with my class cause I wanted so bad to have these few days off,and I had 'em. Thing is,I got my asthma once again,so I mainly stayed in. I had like SO MANY plans for these two days. However I made it to the cinema-hooray! Watched Hanna and decided from the start that it's one of the best films I have EVER watched. It was SO incredibly great. In every possible way. I can't explain really why I fell so madly in love with it,but I did. And I was not supposed to be talking about this film today,but since I started...
Hanna (Saoirse Ronan) is a teenage girl. Uniquely, she has the strength, the stamina, and the smarts of a soldier; these come from being raised by her father (Eric Bana), an ex-CIA man, in the wilds of Finland. Living a life unlike any other teenager, her upbringing and training have been one and the same, all geared to making her the perfect assassin. The turning point in her adolescence is a sharp one; sent into the world by her father on a mission, Hanna journeys stealthily across Europe while eluding agents dispatched after her by a ruthless intelligence operative with secrets of her own (Cate Blanchett). As she nears her ultimate target, Hanna faces startling revelations about her existence and unexpected questions about her humanity.
Where do I start off? Storyline? Direction? Soundtrack? Screenplay? It just all comes out great. It is beautiful. Can't say it in any other way. You are watching people getting murdered indeed, but the music used for the soundtrack transforms each scene into a masterpiece. I do not exaggerate. But I am getting obsesed over the movie,and the Chemical Brothers-who would have guessed? Their music just fits right. Also wanted to point out that Ronan's performance was absolutely stunning. She acted better than in any other movie.She's great in Atonement,City of ember and Lovely bones,but this one? This is waaay better than any of those.
As I said in the beginning I intended to blog about another movie.So fyi this is #462 but I'll have to come back to #475...

Tuesday, 5 April 2011

day 318

Ok, I've seriously lost any touch with reality. I don't understand how can time pass so quickly. Every day is like hell most of the times,so it generally keeps dragging on forever. However, it's over two weeks now that have passed just like that! I mean is it April? I thought it was still Feb or something. I even write --/02/11 on the date. And sometimes i write --/02/10.  It's quite weird I must admit. It's like I've missed a year of my life or that I've lost me somewhere in between.
People do keep calling me weird. I'm almost always saying exactly what I'm thinking,without being too excessive of course. But they do call me weird and stuff, and still noone has told them that's what's weird indeed. :P

#476 Running with scissors
Most people I know like this movie. It's a story of how a boy was abandoned by his mother and how he, later, abandoned her. The year he'll be 14, the parents of Augusten Burroughs (1965- ) divorce, and his mother, who thinks of herself as a fine poet on the verge of fame, delivers him to the eccentric household of her psychiatrist, Dr. Finch. During that year, Augusten avoids school, keeps a journal, and practices cosmetology. His mother's mental illness worsens, he takes an older lover, he finds friendship with Finch's younger daughter, and he's the occasional recipient of gifts from an unlikely benefactor. Can he survive to come of age?(imdb)
First thing to say:I wouldn't say that was a comedy. Has some funny scenes but I believe they're there to drag on the dramatic tone of the movie and show how tragic life can be. Clearly drama for me. Truth be told, I didn't get that enthusiastic about it. It was interesting, as I like everything that has to do with mental illnesses and human mind. However,the movie wasn't that good in all its length. There where scenes kinda pointless, and some really great ones. I can't choose a favourite character, it would be most likely to choose Augusten's mum,Deirdre Burroughs(Annette Bening). She was meant to be weird and egoistic,and she did it! Augusten(Joseph Cross) was kinda neutral for my taste, but Finch's younger daughter, Natalie(Evan Rachel Wood), was far more interesting. Maybe it's just me, cause I like her in general(Thirteen,True Blood,etc). Even Gwyneth Paltrow's role as Finch's older daughter was way too macabre and sick(which I'm not going to explain,cause you have to see it for yourself:P).Agnes Finch is the most amazing of them all, when it comes to evolving the character...So I've got pretty mixed up whether I liked the film or not...not very useful, innit?
See?This could be very well be a funny clip,but the emptiness of it can only make me think about how much trouble there is in their heads/hearts/whatever.
"Hope: You know Natalie, youre so oral, you'll never get to anal
Natalie: And youll never get a dick in your dried up cunt, you old maid!"
Don't we just love Natalie?

Monday, 4 April 2011

My so-called life - Blister in the sun

I think that pretty much sums up "me" today. I'm in love with the song. And I'm dancing to it,though I never dance. And I love Claire Danes and Jordan Catalano. I just like how he's always leaning. Against stuff. He leans great. I'll come back to this. Sure I will.

Saturday, 2 April 2011

And since I started off with the music and all...

...I have to post this. I've been listening to it for almost an hour! I'd like to consider the guy who wrote it(Poirot) my friend. Well done George:)
Things to believe in are hard to find
But I've always had a dream that warmed my mind
Let me tell you - I'll tell you
About my secret future paradise
I'm prepared to take off whatever the price
Start a new life - I want to buy a house in Mexico

I sometimes feel I should just settle down
Forget about my plans and become that clown you all want me to
But this song goes out to the world's bellybutton
I'll soon be coming home with my cat-feather hat on
Receive me - I wanna buy a house in Mexico

Maybe I will hate the weather
But I'm sure I'll stay forever
In the house I'll build with heart and soul
Don't you know - in Mexico

Don't you wear now that face
You don't care and it shows
I'm not even in the first seven things that occupy your sweet mind
I'll go down to a place
That nobody knows
Just to find those special moments of peace and leave all issues behind
Down in Mexico

Friday, 1 April 2011

another (sunny) day?

Things are getting better. And I'm not going to talk about the guy I like for the past two years and who turned out to be gay. See? It's like I never mentioned it. I'm done with crying and all, our friendship is all that matters, innit? I mean I do need this. So, seriously now, being gay is not something anybody should be ashamed of. It's your choice and you have to support it. Which doesn't mean anything like "go ahead and tell everybody you know" but you get me. Plus, parents should respect things like that. They're still their children, they can't just make their lives a living hell. They've got rights. And parents' control should have some limits.
Anyway, I'm like falling in love with two things.My so-called life,this series with Claire Danes and Jared Leto,and Belle & Sebastian. Like that song: