So basically,that's it. You're a jerk.
It's been so long. Not since I last saw you-for the first time I'm talking about something else. It's been so long since I had something to actually say to you. I mean the kind of thing you do when you meet friends and you say lots of different stuff? That. Doesn't. Happen. To. Me. Everytime I want to talk to you, the message list just stands there starring back at me. My mind goes blank and there is nothing in the world i have left to say to you.
Some part of me,literally wants to hurt you. Kill you perhaps. You know...you killed me first. So do me a favour and die today for just this once,since you already know i'm on my bitter days. Those days you feel that punch on the stomach and you wanna die,you plan the perfect death,but there is something missing. And on those days you love more. And hate more. And the line between the two fades,and you find yourself fighting the only person who you have ever really loved. You can almost understand the truth at those times,but you dont wanna believe it. That person does n o t care about you at all. No matter what you do.
The other part of me wants to forget you even exist. Quite harsh, I know, but trust me, we would be both so better off without all those messy situations. Your mere existence can so easily bring to my life insufferable pain. And you don't do a single thing to ease that pain.
"I could be somewhere else
I should be someone else
But you wouldn't know me if I was"
I should be someone else
But you wouldn't know me if I was"
Johnny Flynn always puts my thoughts on beautiful songs. Songs you'll never listen.
Here I stand all alone
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Have my heart filled up with ice
To avoid It's breakin' twice
Thanx to you, my dear old friend
But you can't help. this is the end
Of a tale that wasn't right
I won't have no sleep tonight
In my heart, in my soul
I really hate to pay this toll
Should be strong, young and bold
But the only thing I feel is pain
It's alright, we'll stay friends
Trustin' In my confidence
And Iet's say it's just alright
You won't sleep alone tonight
In my heart, in my soul
I really hate to pay this toll
Should be strong, young and bold
But the only thing I feel is pain
With my heart, with my soul
Some guys cry you bought and sold
They've been strong, young and bold
And they say, play this song again
In my heart, in my soul
I really hate to pay this toll
Should be strong, young and bold
But the only thing I feel is pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain
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This tale was not right at all (Michael Kiske agrees 23 years ago...) Maybe pain is more powerful than love, but without love you have no happiness-vs.-pain <=> no experiences <=> no life, so in the end forgetting is not easy, neither is it harsh... (I don't get me, but there's something in this thought: "how would things be if I didn't know you?"... I vote for black and white... No love = no color... Admit it...)
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