Insomnia and stuff

What's the point of setting rules if you're not going to keep them anyway? Of course I'm referring to procrastination again. I had literally so many things to do and i ended up doing nothing. Again. I went to frontistirio,so that lasted 3 hours, I went to the dentist(can't remember how long that lasted,cause it was weird,perhaps awful,like all the visits to any kind of doctors are), but apart from that, I mainly did nothing. I just spent all of my time on youtube and blogspot and vyou watching all the youtubers I know answering questions and thinking how cool some of them are.
Which brings me back to my own blog. So,this is kinda weird,but recently I've noticed 2 or 3 sites that show up in my stats in the 'referring urls' section. And those sites are completely irrelevant,like gothise dot com and risingtaste dot com. I just hate it when something like this happens,cause I really want to know my stats and everything,which is of course something next to zero if you think about it,but never give up hope. Plus. The posts that have the most views are Grease,Hachiko a dog's story and Cinema paradiso.None of them has a real review or anything,but in any case,those people who have found my blog have all found it through the image search. Well I got the pictures from other people, so I don't know why mine are showing up first. Anyway. Most of those people do not even look at my blog. They just download the photo and leave. And the views to my 'real' posts are up to 10 or something. It's sad.
Did I mention my brother's surgery went fine? No,I didn't,so I'm doing it now.
Fuck its 1.35 am again. What the fuck is wrong with time.I begun writing this post 3 or 4 hours ago, that's how much procrastination we're talking about. I honestly would like to know whether it's my insomnia that keeps me watching videos and blogging,or the other way round.
I want to keep writing just to feel sleepy at some point,but this will become boring and long and...you know.
Ps.I might have said 'really' quite a lot in this post.I apologise. :]

11/10 or 12/10?

News of the week:my brother is in hospital.I'm not going to get really into this due to my lack of knowledge on the subject,you know,english medical terms and stuff. But it's not that serious after all,tomorrow he's having a surgery and next week hopefully he'll be fine.
On an other note,i keep repeating to myself i should procrastinate less. I'm procrastinating all the fucking time! Especially with studying. My grades are something more than ok,their almost perfect,BUT i don't study as i should. I mean,everybody sees me being tired and then getting a really high grade,and they think i study like a lot. You know what? I may be tired but it's just that the previous day i couldn't sleep and i was watching youtube videos till 1am. Youtube can be bloody addictive... And anyway. It's not that i don't study at all,I'm not Einstein or something to know everything just like that,but i don't study every day. Which is weird. Cause i end up admitting that i've got no free time.
I'm also procrastinating on being a youtuber myself. I've been wanting to do this for 2 or 3 years now,but i still haven't done anything. This is lame. I know how to blog,i have the camera,i think i could handle this. But i havent even tried.
My eyes are hopelessly closing. Goodnight.

I always suck at finding blog titles

So shit's been going on lately. MORE than before,as if that was possible. Basically, I haven't gone out for 3 weeks. You know,going to the cinema with friends or something like that. No,apart from having something to eat on Friday before going to my drawing class,I haven't gone out at all,due to a combination of tons of studying and bad mood. Today however i was supposed to go out like a normal person does,but no,of course not,what the hell,i did not. My mum disagreed with my choice of clothes(and i assure you there is nothing wrong with wearing a tshirt and jacket when it's pretty cold outside) and i got angry and i may have slammed the door a little bit,but hey! It's not the end of the world is it? Well,for her it was. She didn't let me go out FOR SLAMMING A FUCKING DOOR. Even though she knows how hard I'm trying for school and stuff. And i don't deserve this,and of course i did not apologise to her or anything. Cause after all i don't fucking have to. And she said things. Lots of things. And my dad came back and she continued saying stuff,and now she told me that she's never waking me up for school again. Then again waking up is the hardest thing ever for me,but i think i'll live. And i whispered alright and left the room.
By the way,since I'm talking about this,she doesn't let me be a vegetarian. Earlier this week someone in my neighbourhood had left for some reason parts of an animal on the road and there was blood all over the place. I was shocked. And today my mum wanted me to have a steak. You know what? I nearly cried all over it. Think about it. It was young and joyful,and had legs and voice for god's sake. And she made me eat it.
My head hurts. Either I had too much of that liquor i was drinking earlier,or it's just that i need sleep. It's almost 1am. Come on,sleep.
"And sleep does not come
Because sleep does not will it"